Mai aur meri TANHAYEE...

Everything is so quiet and peaceful but there is this loud roar inside. A scream, a fear and loneliness. Fear of losing something; something I have always had and lost it somewhere already on my way to where I am now. Being in a crowd and still feel lonely. Standing in sun and waiting for the darkness to take over and hide you from everything. With so much activity going on and feeling the stillness around you. Looking at smiling faces and wondering about their beauty.

Watching children play and thinking about old days. Always having a thought in the back of the mind.. What am I doing?? What have I done?? Having weird dreams about someone you might have loved. A sense of mortification. Repressing feelings which should be expressed. A desire, want, to Trust someone. Go wild. Unleash the thoughts. Chaos!!!

Me with myself.....!!!

Some days you want to let it out. Things you have been hiding for so long. You look for someone to hear you. You look around, with the hope of finding someone who would not judge you. Someone who would only listen to, what you have to say and give all the comfort and love you need, without being a critic. You wish for that someone to be biased (though most of us would not admit this). You wish that he/she would agree with you, in all what you have to say. You feel a need to be right. Just this one time, you think and you wish to be "I-know-I-am-right". You look for the reasons. You have feelings, you yourself do not want to agree with. You want and need someone who would make 'you' feel wanted.

In those times, most of the time, you wont find that someone. (Even if you do, you might not be able to pour your heart out). And then you would have only, YOU. You would have to be your own guide and you would have to be your own listener.

If this is so, why wait for someone at the first place? Why not talk to yourself at the very beginning? Why hide things from yourself when you know you would have to face it sooner or later.? Why not accept life as it comes? Wouldn't it be wiser to be honest with yourself right from the start??

A 'Still' Journey.

I am not old enough to talk about "life". I haven't seen a percent of what it is. Me talking about life is like someone talking about the universe, without having a clue of its vastness but just an idea of its beauty. In whatever small period of my life till date, I have lost and found love. I have dreamed and let the dream break. I have got whatever I wanted and still felt empty. But in all those years, I thought, I knew what I wanted. That was what kept me driving. Every setback, every failure, I accepted it. I had to. And the life didn't stop. At those times people around me advised me to move on. To let go. And I did. But then again, did I?


These are things you have no control over. You don't move on, but you still walk, looking back once in a while. You don't control life. Life controls you.

My unsaid words.....

Although I do not have any follower for my blog, but I can not stop myself to pen down my thoughts. I am a kind of person who can not express her feelings in-front of everyone. writing is my hobby, I still remember when i was in school i used to write letters to my friends. Even to my best friend ROSHNI. :)

Then I thought I should pen down my thoughts and spread my unsaid words to the world. So my blog is dedicated to all of them who are in shorts of words while speaking but a lot to say when the rest of world are not even cares what he/she want to say to the rest of the world.

Exceedingly positive

Don't worry about getting it done. Just get it done.

Don't complain about what has gone wrong. Just do whatever is necessary to make it right.

Your time and energy are too precious and too powerful to waste on things that will just bring you down. Instead of bringing yourself down, lift the whole world up.

Decide to live life on your own terms and make those terms exceedingly positive. Choose to spend each priceless moment in the service of your highest values.

Whatever the situation, you get to decide how you will be. So always direct your energy to where it will bring new richness to your world.

Take everything in stride, and respond with your own unique, positive perspective. Live on the highest level you can envision, and cheerfully encourage everyone else to come along.

Find your way

Don’t complain that something is blocking your path. Find a way over it, under it, around it or through.

Just because the work is difficult doesn’t mean it’s impossible. Find a way, and you’ll absolutely make it happen.

You can’t expect to be told exactly what steps will get you where you want to go. Find joy and sweet fulfillment in the fact that it’s up to you to find your own way.

Don’t waste your time crafting elaborate excuses or seeking the pity of others. Invest your precious time in finding a way forward.

You might think it would be nice if someone else were to cater to your every need and whim. Yet what your spirit truly desires is to find its own way, and deep inside you know that.

You were born to find your own unique way through life’s richness of possibilities. Your treasures await, so get going right now.

Go for it

The situations where you’re most likely to make mistakes are also situations in which you have the greatest opportunities to make progress. When there’s something on the line, there’s something to be gained.
Don’t seek to make mistakes, but don’t seek to avoid them either. Seek instead to put yourself in circumstances that challenge you to grow.
When there’s the possibility of making a bad impression, there’s also the possibility to make a great impression. Success comes from being able to accept the risk of failure.
When you ask for something, there’s a good chance that you’ll be turned down. But if you never ask, there’s a rock solid certainty that you won’t get what you seek.
By asking often enough and sincerely enough, you’ll get the answer you’re after. By listening to enough people tell you no, you’ll find someone who tells you yes.
Make the effort, put yourself on the line, and go for it. Though the road can be bumpy at times, the way to get there is to get going.