Everything is so quiet and peaceful but there is this loud roar inside. A scream, a fear and loneliness. Fear of losing something; something I have always had and lost it somewhere already on my way to where I am now. Being in a crowd and still feel lonely. Standing in sun and waiting for the darkness to take over and hide you from everything. With so much activity going on and feeling the stillness around you. Looking at smiling faces and wondering about their beauty.
Watching children play and thinking about old days. Always having a thought in the back of the mind.. What am I doing?? What have I done?? Having weird dreams about someone you might have loved. A sense of mortification. Repressing feelings which should be expressed. A desire, want, to Trust someone. Go wild. Unleash the thoughts. Chaos!!!
hi ,
ReplyDeletewith this post of yours i felt that what i am visualizing is already wriitten by you here.though dear i was not sure whether what i think can match with anyone.but i found the same.
at times in life after walking a thousand steps we want to check and correct ourself ,many of the thoughts come to mind but can not decide what to do.loved the way you wrote.